F e n n i e

2012-02-09T00:40:00.001+08:00

Filthy blood.

2012-02-08T23:54:00.001+08:00

Shutting down.

2012-02-07T22:31:00.001+08:00

When my Father wasn't there, you were there.

I love you.

2012-02-07T20:22:00.003+08:00

Mirror on the wall, here we are again.

Through my rise and fall, you've been my only friend.

You told me that they can understand the man I am,

so why are we talking to each other again?

2012-02-07T20:21:00.001+08:00

You'll be in a better place.

2012-02-05T14:39:00.001+08:00

I'm still having the vintage vibe within.

2012-02-05T14:35:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE DEAREST ASSHOLE FRIEND OF MINE,

ANBRA.

2012-02-05T14:35:00.001+08:00

I did the background myself!

2012-01-31T20:00:00.002+08:00

To put it nicely: Helping out your loved ones.

To put it badly: Helping out free loaders who crossed your path without a choice.

I'm keeping my cool still.

I swear I'll take her away with me.

Burn this house.

2012-01-30T21:47:00.001+08:00

Chronic stress keeps all my fats in my tummy and thighs.

I have to exercise tomorrow!

Before I go, "Hey how's it going!".

2012-01-29T14:04:00.001+08:00

If we didn't let you in, I would be the happiest kid alive.
Period.

2012-01-29T13:57:00.000+08:00

Why did you leave so early?

2012-01-29T12:00:00.001+08:00

Forever pissed at how small my portion is ha-ha.

How long moochers?

2012-01-29T11:58:00.002+08:00

What is so difficult to text that someone personally when you have the number.

It is rude or insincere sometimes when you do that.

Just because you're busy doesn't mean you rule the world.

2012-01-28T11:47:00.001+08:00

Take a Taxi if you're late for the movie.

2012-01-27T21:22:00.000+08:00

Are you confused by mine,

or am I confused by yours..

2012-01-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

If your friend forgives you, then you've passed the test.

Messenger

2012-01-24T17:00:00.000+08:00

Why ask me to do so when you can just text her straightaway, like how you're texting me now?

2012-01-21T15:38:00.000+08:00

I wish I'll know you more through you.

2012-01-21T15:13:00.003+08:00

Why do we give birth?

Most common answers are: Because our parents are so in love, or to carry on one's ancestral's line.

It could also be accidental.

Or to get that extra cash you need to get you through a few months.

Many reasons.

But that's not the point.

To raise a kid, definitely takes alot of time.

Every parent has their own way of taking care of their own kids, their own principles to abide to.

But as time goes by, will your child become someone you want them to be?

I mean, are you supposed to guide them or to control them?

Just because they say no, does that mean they are in the wrong and you'll have to punish them?

I don't know.

Teaching them morals, manners, education, etc. is definitely a must,

but at some point of time, I wonder, if I ever became a parent, would I mould my kids to be like myself?

To let them share the same views and perspectives as me?

Just because I don't like a particular thing or views, I'd force them to not like it too?

When I'm lazy or busy, I'd ask my kids to do all the job for me while I cut some slack, and

if they wouldn't do it I'll punish them?

This is such a huge and sensitive topic.

I still haven't figure it out yet.

But I think one thing that parents should do is,

since you've chosen to conceive, you'll have to protect and care for your kids.

You should step up against one if you know your kids are suffering.

That's the most basic thing you should do.

2012-01-19T20:22:00.000+08:00

Sigh.

2012-01-19T20:18:00.002+08:00

If you're so unhappy about it, get out of my fucking house.

What you do here is a duh factor to repay her kindness towards you.

Poor scumbags.

Think for me, I'm keeping quiet throughout the whole time.

Don't judge my words, wait till you hear theirs.

Fuck, get yourself a psychologist first.

I fear you may get "killed" by your own mouth.

2012-01-18T21:06:00.000+08:00

Made my day once again!

Please show the inner you more.

: )

2012-01-18T20:10:00.001+08:00

If only it was something different.

If it is, I'll look back at you.

2012-01-17T21:29:00.001+08:00

Can I do anything about the change in my friends?
Apparently not.

Do as they deem fit.

Again, I'm no saint..

I'm sick of being someone I'm not.

Yes, I'm an actress.

2012-01-17T20:50:00.001+08:00

What's left are the residue of your unused love.

Not friendship.

Vague.

2012-01-17T19:37:00.000+08:00

Secrets secrets secrets, she thought.

It's just another word for lying.

2012-01-17T18:47:00.001+08:00

With a hint of Men's cologne,

awkward yet spontaneous.

2012-01-17T18:46:00.001+08:00

I'm having second thoughts.

I pray that you'll stay.

2012-01-17T09:59:00.001+08:00

Watcher.

2012-01-12T20:28:00.001+08:00

At least I tried.

I tried to be real.

I've done my part, the rest is up to you to decide and decipher.

We all have our own preferences, don't we?

2012-01-11T22:31:00.000+08:00

I've to train my mentality.

MIA-ed for too long.

2012-01-11T22:30:00.000+08:00

I have to stop being so full of myself.

What's getting into me these days.

2012-01-11T22:17:00.002+08:00

I pretty much feel that I deserve the respect like how the rest have, in common.

I have so much to show, and clearly I'm the only one who knows that the show isn't over yet.

But what is there to prove when they barely passed the "friendship test"?

Am I the only one clinging onto it, anticipating spontaneous gestures?

It is good to be hopeful.

It is bad to be mentally lying to yourself.

I know, since last time, I've always wanted to just sit back and wait for people to find me instead of vice versa.

I've already let go of that.

I know in your mind I'm someone who's the exact opposite of who I really am.

And if that's the case, my brain has "outwitted" yours.

Clearly, in a contradicting manner filled with delusions.

Honestly I can't control it.

Probably it's self-protection.

Because of death.

2012-01-08T01:23:00.001+08:00

It was a good day today! :) Met up with some of my good old buddies. :)

TP's really fun.

Oh Smirl, ask me about your school. :P

2012-01-08T01:22:00.001+08:00

Hidden mockery.

Unknown motives, targets.

Sweet revenge, no casualties involved.

2012-01-08T01:17:00.002+08:00

You don't know me, so you pretty well shut your foul mouth and kiss my ass.

2012-01-06T23:21:00.000+08:00

I'm bad with words, best to not even say anything.

2012-01-05T21:52:00.001+08:00

Don't forget my resolutions. : D

2012-01-05T21:49:00.003+08:00

"If it makes you feel better, we'll all go home and study."

I feel horrible man, you just literally slapped me in the face.

Horrible.

Misunderstood.

2012-01-05T21:24:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, we really need motivational songs to kick ass and jump back to your feet!

2012-01-03T23:33:00.000+08:00

The one that got away, taking away little fragments of it.

2012-01-03T23:15:00.002+08:00

Sittin' on the carousel,

spinnin' round and round,

like a merry-go-round.

Wafting.

I crave for more.

Cross my heart,

I swear I won't kiss and tell.

2012-01-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

"And so.. what exactly did you learn from me?"

2012-01-03T23:12:00.001+08:00

I'm not sure what signal I'm getting,

but I opt for false alarm.

2012-01-02T14:40:00.002+08:00

If you are mad at me, I clearly had hit a nerve and pissed you off because what I've said, are truths.

And I'm proud being a loser.

2012-01-02T14:34:00.001+08:00

Yeah, you may think that I'm a zero
But, hey, everyone you wanna be
Probably started off like me
You may say that I'm a freakshow (I don't care)
But, hey, give me just a little time
I bet you're gonna change your mind

All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way
It ain't so hard to take, that's right
'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name
And I'll just look away, that's right

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, and soon enough you'll figure out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me

Push me up against the locker
And hey, all I do is shake it off
I'll get you back when I'm your boss
I'm not thinkin' 'bout you haters
'Cause hey, I could be a superstar
I'll see you when you wash my car
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsty.com/glee-cast-loser-like-me-lyrics.html ]
All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way
It ain't so hard to take, that's right
'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name
And I'll just look away, that's right

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, and soon enough you'll figure out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me
A loser like me

Hey, you, over there
Keep the L up-up in the air
Hey, you, over there
Keep the L up, 'cause I don't care
You can throw your sticks, and you can throw your stones
Like a rocket, just watch me go
Yeah, l-o-s-e-r
I can only be who I are

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, and soon enough you'll figure out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the worst you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, and soon enough you'll figure out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me (A loser like me)
A loser like me (A loser like me)
A loser like me

2012-01-02T14:32:00.003+08:00

"Marriage is grand, divorce is fifty grand"

2012-01-02T14:24:00.003+08:00

One thing this place lacks, is sincerity, trust, care and love.

I don't care how busy you are, or how happy you are with your new friends,etc.

But don't lose who you once were just because you've went through hardships or you're tired, and you lost your faith.

The world goes around with money nowadays, but not your heart.

Come on. The world would be a better place if you think simpler and not suspect your friends, family, and even strangers.

But then again, it takes years to be good again.

2011-12-31T21:43:00.001+08:00

Nobody wants to mess with other people's business.

Thank you but forget it.

2011-12-31T15:22:00.002+08:00

It's New Year's Eve!

Hopefully I'd stick to my resolutions and be a better man.

Every year there's bound to be lesson learnt.

Every year there's bound to be choices and chances.

Not much difference, but probably you'll get wiser.

And definitely older.

Happier, or whatsoever.

I'm really glad 2011 is gone, because every year, my mind would refresh itself.

This year is definitely bad, but I guess I did learn several things.

It is tiring.

It gets pretty bad when someone so optimistic once can be that depressed and less hopeful because of the surroundings and people around.

But well, I pulled through.

Yes, once again!

Along with several illness.

And mixed emotions.

Haha, I really need to see beautiful things.

Probably this would be the last time I rant all these bad stuffs?

Fingers crossed.

I'm not going to bring all these with me tomorrow.

Even though I definitely know, these problems will still come knocking at my door, at her door.

But well, you can only find true peace when you die, so lol.

Till I die.

Loves of my life.

2011-12-26T22:39:00.001+08:00

2011-12-26T22:26:00.002+08:00

Contrast

2011-12-26T22:18:00.001+08:00

Time for revamp!

2011-12-26T22:15:00.002+08:00

It irks me when you correct my English when I'm serious with you.

Is English more important than what I say?

I used those vocabularies with a reason.

Dense.

2011-12-26T21:54:00.004+08:00

It's the timeless selfishness which leads to something that will daunt you for life.

Being good has a price.

I go backwards and forward; I'm the devilish angel.

2011-12-26T21:50:00.002+08:00

On the edge of tripping,

listening, waiting, seeking.

Dark grey sea,

white washed jeans.

Arms like feathers,

ready for you.

Ready for lost virginity.

Vaster than the seas.

Caresses your hair, soul.

2011-12-25T17:02:00.002+08:00

I don't enjoy sms-es from twitter or from Facebook.

I feel exposed.

You either call, or text me.

I don't know, I just find it rude.

Honestly speaking.

2011-12-23T22:58:00.002+08:00

It's peanut butter jelly time!

2011-12-23T20:45:00.001+08:00

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2011-12-21T20:01:00.001+08:00

We all do things that we're not proud of.

Take it easy on yourself.

2011-12-20T23:14:00.002+08:00

But then again, I'm a better person now.

So move on.

2011-12-20T23:09:00.003+08:00

I wish I could go up to you guys, telling that I've changed for the better.

But that would be weird.

Kids.

2011-12-18T20:15:00.001+08:00

I was a bad friend.

Till now, I'm still trying to improve.

2011-12-18T00:06:00.002+08:00

It affects my personality, thus trying to test on how strong I am, again.

P.S- That commercial picture has a strong image.

2011-12-18T00:03:00.003+08:00

I can't say that I don't believe in true love, because I've never experienced it before.

But nothing seems to fancy me either way.

2011-12-18T00:02:00.001+08:00

I want to have a real conversation with you more than anything else right now I suppose.

I wonder..

2011-12-18T00:00:00.001+08:00

Should I add in chat box again?

2011-12-15T01:38:00.000+08:00

Caffeine's wearing off!

Now I'm tired.

600th

2011-12-14T21:15:00.002+08:00

Till now,

and more will come. :)

2011-12-14T15:26:00.001+08:00

Observance.

Sensitivity.

Wake up.

2011-12-13T18:32:00.001+08:00

And one thing.. where are all the crows?

2011-12-13T18:30:00.002+08:00

Been thinking a lot, and sort of came up with several conclusions.

My peace is back on track once again. : )

Way to go!

2011-12-11T23:46:00.001+08:00

今天男孩要赴女孩最後的約。

我的老朋友。

2011-12-11T23:14:00.003+08:00

Taken yesterday.

Common motives tend to bond us all.

Helped out for the prom, it was fun.

Not to mention that it was a great chit-chatting session with my dear friend Darrell!

Took some Polaroids.

Will upload soon!

Tee hee!

2011-12-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

You ain't shit.

You read, and you did nothing.

2011-12-11T23:10:00.002+08:00

SAY WHAT?

2011-12-11T23:01:00.003+08:00

Stress obstructs my vision, my passion.

I wonder where it came from, that's the only thing that I couldn't figure out.

No.

I do know the reason why.

Sadly, I can't gain it.

It's not something I can offer to myself.

Sigh.

I am going to shut down if this continues.

2011-12-09T23:36:00.004+08:00

Maybe, you just needed someone to pull you out from that burrow you dug.

Who isn't tired of life?

I know many likes to escape from reality and gets lost in their reverie.

So do I.

Self indulgence is necessary, but never forget one thing.

Life ain't routine despite how tainted it is.

I still want to be that Chinese white porcelain.

Please, you.

2011-12-09T23:36:00.001+08:00

You are the sand, that slips through my hands.

2011-12-06T22:37:00.000+08:00

What has gone wrong.

Unhealthy diet?

2011-12-04T12:35:00.000+08:00

I want to re-born..

2011-12-04T11:38:00.001+08:00

Don't know what have I actually done to meet you now in my present life.

2011-12-04T11:37:00.001+08:00

EVERYDAY CRITICIZE ME VERY FUN IS IT?

FUCK YOU.

2011-11-27T10:47:00.001+08:00

I can't say

I can't hold you

I have to act like I didn't see the shaking lips or the tears that were held back

Hold me after this night goes, I'm sad because I feel like you're not going to be there

It shines more right now, hope this moment lasts forever

I'm always waiting for you, all day I wait for you (oh hoho)

I'm searching for you with no promise

One year station that I'm standing at

Think that the world was jealous of us

One year station, I can feel you at this place

The empty station where you're not at, pray that we meet again

One year station, I can dream of you at this place ah ah ha

(no no no) Even if it isn't only one night

Know that It's a lie, it's not me

Us meeting that crossed each other from together, the long long long buffering

Bush of ivy between you and me again, the scary jungle in reality

I want to help you up but I don't have the strength to do that

I don't like myself doing this; I'm tired of waiting for so long

Even if we're far away from each other let's keep our love

This isn't a burden for me, it's just a short break

Really surprise, I didn't know that the day would really come

I didn't know how precious you were because of my selfishness

365 again the number one bus, the bus that I'm waiting for which is you

Come into my arms having a big smile like you would do on an ordinary day

One year station that I'm standing at

Think that the world was jealous of us

One year station, I can feel you at this place

The empty station where you're not at, pray that we meet again

One year station, I can dream o fyou at this place ah ah ha

In your small heart, in our small hand don't leave a scar

In your small shoulders, in your pretty eyes promise to not see the dark future

One year station that I'm standing at

Think that the world was jealous of us

On year station, I can feel you at this place

The empty station where you're not at, pray that we meet again

One year station, I can dream of you at this place ma baby

One year station that I'm standing at

Think that the world was jealous of us

One year station, I can feel you at this place

The empty station where you're not at, pray that we meet again

One year station, I can dream of you at this place ah ah ha

2011-11-27T10:42:00.001+08:00

Sometimes we just have to constantly remind ourselves to think positive of others.

2011-11-27T10:38:00.002+08:00

Sometimes the sudden thump would just come out from nowhere.

You know, that movie I watched, reminds me of you.

I wonder what would happen if I didn't do it.

But the past is the past, we can't change history.

I'm still glad that you're by my side.

2011-11-26T22:05:00.002+08:00

Your closest friends are your personal diary.

My dear friend just tweeted me all the past handicrafts I've made, and all the pictures I've drew for her.

She just rekindled my love for Art, and creating hand-made things.

Pretty much overwhelmed by emotions right now.

I've so much to ponder and reflect on.

2011-11-24T22:36:00.001+08:00

And the :J comes out again. Thanks John!

2011-11-24T22:28:00.001+08:00

Notice the word "I" pops out everywhere.

2011-11-24T22:21:00.003+08:00

I get inspired while reading my old posts.

I've created my own history.

I definitely have to read more, because my english is de-proving.

I want to take up psychology.

Time for the library!

I also have to work harder.

Sigh, I noticed that I hardly mention about my friends in my post nowadays.

I miss you guys.

I wish we all can meet up every single day.

Even though 4 years was short, but the bond is solid like a rock.

Anything can happen.

Despite being so busy and all that, we would all still think of one another.

Hhahah.

I have a bunch of fun friends too.

Pretty different.

2011-11-24T22:01:00.001+08:00

It is obvious that I view the world differently from you.

But if you are willing to open your mind and heart, I'll take you on tour.

2011-11-24T21:57:00.001+08:00

Death has its own beauty.

2011-11-24T21:52:00.001+08:00

Time to start the game.

2011-11-24T21:50:00.000+08:00

I feel offended by your words.

Watch out.

2011-11-23T22:32:00.001+08:00

Cautious mockery, slits of scar.

2011-11-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

I see things that you couldn't see.

I am what you least expect.

2011-11-21T23:39:00.002+08:00

People definitely change.

But what was yours, is always yours.

No one can take that away from you.

Only you have the key.

Once you've lost it, the journey will be difficult.

With determination, neutral comes in.

2011-11-21T23:27:00.002+08:00

I won't buy myself excuses to say that it was planned to be that way,

it was planned for me in order to learn.

It wasn't planned.

The wind's howling,

Sand's thrusting.

Immobilized for almost a decade showing respect-

Silent honor.

2011-11-21T23:22:00.001+08:00

I never lost my touch on the dark side.